Nine tips on how to live in the midst of turmoil
"The wheels are in motion now, let's see what happens..."
My mind has been creating turmoil for me lately.
Some of it comes from recent events in El Salvador. Bitcoin is no longer legal tender. El Salvador signed a treaty for a new loan with the IMF. Then there are the chem trails I see some mornings when I go outside to watch the sun rise.
Two of my friends sold their house and moved back to Texas. Others are optimistic and determined, like my friend John who runs Mi Premier Bitcoin, a non-profit education group he founded and is expanding.
I dislike chem trails and have tried to find a way to observe them without losing my sense of optimism and hope. It is hard for me.
Tip #1: Simply notice: the wheels are in motion…there is movement
Yet, somehow, I do feel like there is hope and I hear and see things here that continue to inspire me. And many things remain mysterious in this ever changing world. Honestly, it is true in many ways that “the wheels are in motion now” and it is best for me to continue to watch, see what happens, and make adjustments.
That particular phrase came to me during a call with my friend, Sandra. I was worried about an upcoming meeting I had with someone. I had all kinds of ideas regarding terrible things that might happen, all of which were completely unfounded. Those kind of worries come from my mind’s past experiences. It likes to warn me of imaginary, terrible outcomes which have a tiny probability of coming to pass.
And I am learning that by following the advice of the phrase I share with you today: "The wheels are in motion now, let's see what happens...", I am less driven by my imagination and able to live my life closer to the edge, as an adventure.
Tip #2: Be curious, make adjustments
I did move forward with my meeting, with curiosity. Curiosity is much more empowering than fear, although certainly there is a place for that at times as well.
And right now, it would be easy for me to become anxious and afraid. There are many temptations in my news feed to add fuel to those states. Plus, I have decided to move at the end of this month, put my things in storage, and explore this country more and then likely continue on to more nomadic experiences in other parts of the world later this year.
I am still looking at properties here, and still desire to own a place where I feel more physically grounded. I tell myself the painting I purchased sitting in the basement of an art gallery in Boulder, Colorado, needs a home. But so do I.
Tip #3: Notice your thoughts, and the anxious habits of the mind
And all these things are unfolding beautifully, as long as I don’t let my mind move into old habitual patterns of anxiety and fear. My mind does not like uncertainty and right now the only thing certain in my life is that I am putting my things in storage at the end of this month, and then moving to a beautiful two hundred year old Spanish style hotel for five nights in Ataco, a small colonial town in El Salvador which I have not visited and which has been recommended to me as a place I might like to live.
Tip #4: Notice what feels good, find the adventure and the hope in whatever occupies you
After those five days I have to find a place to go. And although that sounds simple, and likely will be easy, I can forget to embrace the freedom and joy of deciding where I will go next and instead become worried.
But, “The wheels are in motion now…so I shall see what happens.” It is a good practice for me in this ever changing world in which in many ways, I have no choice but to observe, do my best to live from a place of kindness and heart-centered compassion for myself and others, and then “see what happens.” Some wheels I put in motion myself. Others are put in motion by those around me.
Tip #5: Everything is ultimately the unfolding of a divine movement towards greater frequencies of love
I believe my biggest gift and challenge is to trust that everything is ultimately the unfolding of a divine movement towards greater love and higher states of consciousness and awareness.
I am becoming stronger in myself. These challenges are opportunities for me.
Every day, I move forward with rewriting my book. I am dedicated and determined. And it is going much slower than I planned. I find myself rewriting a lot and it feels good to do so. It takes the time it takes, and I know that is something for me to embrace as well.
Tip #6: Time is not what it seems, it is ok for things to take time
Someone recently told me I need to finish it as “I am running out of time.”
I find the comment interesting and also dissonant.
None of us are running out of time. I don’t believe that is possible. Time is simply a concept, or an experience. It is certainly not what it seems, for as I rewrite my book, I travel back in time, and am completely present in the so-called past, while I bring a new perspective to the experience. Then I find, sometimes suddenly, that I am here, years from the “then” that a second ago was “now.”
Time is not what it seems. Why be frightened of it?
I have been taught to hurry. To achieve. To follow schedules dictated by others who decided school bells, fluorescent lights, and hours sitting were a good idea for children. Those people and that energy still affect me as it is stored in my cells, and I am detoxing from it as best I can. Those old beliefs tell me I have to hurry, that I am running out of time.
What if I am running towards something and that the more I allow the wheels I have put into motion, or the wheels that are in motion around me and are beyond my control, to move without trying to stop them, the more free I actually am?
Martin Luther King said he had a dream. I don’t believe it ended when he passed away. The wheels of that dream are still moving, inspiring me and others. Energy like that can’t be stopped, not when it is aligned with love.
Tip #7: What you do and how you spend your energy and time, even if no one sees it, creates a ripple in the Matrix
I feel strongly that if I am “running out of time” and the world ends before there is a copy of my book in anyone’s hands, it still matters. My writing is making an impact. Because things are much, much more about energy than I believe most people imagine. The person who told me to hurry, is covered in clothing and wears a mask to protect his identity. I imagine he sees the potential for digital IDs, loss of personal freedom, CBDCs, and a technocratic state as terribly threatening. And I do too. Yet…he is spending his life behind a mask, avoiding the sun and its glory, and warning me…that I am running out of time.
But I am not. I don’t believe in time and I refuse to live in a paradigm where life is tied to it like a commodity. I am a soul on a journey, putting wheels into motion, watching wheels in motion, seeing what happens, and making adjustments as I go.
Dr. Luis, my friend, took me to his organic farm yesterday. He planted cypress trees that fell in the strong winds last winter so he made some adjustments. “They don’t have very deep roots, Terra, so I will trim the tops so the wind doesn’t affect them so much and plant new ones where they are more protected from it.”
As I raved about the beauty of the organic beds before me, he told me they were his second attempt. The first beds were washed away by torrential rain a few months ago. So he and José, the full time caretaker, rebuilt them a little differently. He explained that José, who works alone on the land the days Dr. Luis is busy seeing patients and running his many businesses, gets a percentage of the profits from the produce they sell. “It seems fair that way I think,” he commented to me.
We were hot and dusty when we went back to his truck to get a drink after climbing the hills as we toured the property. He offered me an alkaline drink he brought from his store. “Do you want any sea salt in it?” he said, as he held out a salt shaker from the truck that I suspect travels with him. I nodded my agreement as he scooped about 3/4 of a teaspoon into the little glass bottle. It seems what I learned about avoiding salt, just like many other things, might not have been in my best interest after all.
We headed off to help José, which is what Dr. Luis comes up to do about three days a week when he is not seeing patients, overseeing his restaurant, small hotel in the city, or the grocery stores he opened to offer healthier options for people here. He handed me some clippers and a black, plastic container and showed me how to harvest basil. Then he headed off to talk to José.
It was peaceful clipping the basil. The smell from it wafted around me along with memories of preparing caprese salads for dinner in California, with multicolored sliced heirloom tomatoes, extra virgin olive oil, soft buffalo mozzarella that oozed as I sliced it and placed it on top, with the fresh basil leaves and a dusting of sea salt. I remembered the years I worked in my mom’s garden and the small garden we used to have in Cardiff.
I spied the first three tiny, red cherry tomatoes further up the hill in the midst of bunches of green ones that weighed heavily on the stems supporting them and after handing him the now full tub of fresh basil leaves, I ran to pick them and handed one to each of them while popping the other happily into my mouth. I didn’t like them growing up, but things have changed.
He washed the basil with fresh spring water in a big black tub and then placed it in a giant colander as he spun it enthusiastically dry by hand, while he told me it was only the second harvest from these basil plants.
Finished and happy, he set the large yellow colander down and, José picked up a sprig. It was bruised and damaged. “Oh,” said Dr. Luis, “I guess I spun it too hard,” and I could see him note that basil is more fragile than he realized. But he took it in stride and he and José began to sort through it so only the undamaged sprigs would go into the bags that would be sold in his natural food stores, called Soya. Although you won’t find anything for sale there made out of soy. After opening the stores, he decided that soy isn’t the healthiest option for people. But he has a brand now and as he explained to me, “Soya is easy for people to remember Terra. Plus it’s the same word in lots of different languages.”
As we discussed health on the drive home he said, “What matters most isn’t the diet people eat, Terra. They can eat Paleo, Keto, or Vegetarian. What matters most is that they get off all the processed food out there. Then they really start to heal.”
He wasn’t angry about the basil, the trees that fell, or the beds that got washed away. He wasn’t hard on himself.
Tip #8: When things don’t go as you expect, you can regroup. It’s ok to have things not go as planned
He bought the land years ago with a vision. It has taken time for him to get to a point where he can move forward with it, and he has been patient. Ten years ago, he planted the first trees. Now, the garden is planted and providing hard-to-find organic food to people in this country. He has plans soon to build a hotel, restaurant, natural pool and a few houses on the land he clearly loves. He set the wheels in motion ten years ago and they are speeding up. As he sees what happens, he course corrects as needed, all while living from a place of vision and what appeared to me to be optimism, as we sat together on the Mexican blanket at the end of the day on a patch of grass under one of the pine trees he had planted years before. He told me sometimes he brings his wife and kids up with their friends. “They love it here. The kids jump in the pool and like to clean it up.” (The current pool is a reservoir in the ground lined with black plastic filled with spring water that uses gravity to supply water through a drip irrigation system to the garden terraces below. It is another wheel he has put in motion, with a goal of turning it into a beautiful natural pool for plants, fish, and people all to enjoy, while it continues to be used to water the garden).
There is a lot of hope and empowerment in putting wheels in motion, and not letting time, and fear of the future, drive one’s chariot.
I want to do more of that, and more of letting myself take a breath as I move forward at my pace, which is the only real pace, and see what happens.
And it never hurts to spend some time with a friend at an organic farm, or in the forest, around some trees.
Tip #9: It helps to hang out with friends, whether trees or people
Stand still. The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,
I have made this place around you.
If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here…
David Wagoner
Summary of the 9 tips:
Tip #1: Simply notice: the wheels are in motion…there is movement
Tip #2: Be curious, make adjustments
Tip #3: Notice your thoughts, and the anxious habits of the mind
Tip #4: Notice what feels good, find the adventure and the hope in whatever occupies you
Tip #5: Everything is ultimately the unfolding of a divine movement towards greater frequencies of love
Tip #6: Time is not what it seems, it is ok for things to take time
Tip #7: What you do and how you spend your energy and time, even if no one sees it, creates a ripple in the Matrix
Tip #8: When things don’t go as you expect, you can regroup. It’s ok to have things not go as planned
Tip #9: It helps to hang out with friends, whether trees or people
It is 3:33 pm as I finish writing to you today:
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May the manifestation of your desires be a joyful process…while you see what happens and make adjustments. May that all be just fine.
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Excellent write up and tips Terra. I also have noticed the chemtrails here. The unnerving thing about them is they are a constant reminder that there is an accountable power structure that operates in the shadows. It seems El Salvador is not independent from that power structure.
This is all so beautifully expressed. On point and extraordinary! Thank you for sharing your journey! I too struggle with the AW (artificial weather) and I find resilience in how fast the sky clears herself with all those sparklies up there before another layer is applied. I also set intent to see that the water and the exotic metals ultimately are made of consciousness and God, so I bless them to remember it to become benign. I have a whole roll of pics of obvious engineered visuals but I am not led led to post them.