Thanks Jamie. I didn’t know that about cacao either. A few days later I seemed fine again and tried some without arriving in that state. It may have been a synergistic thing with those particular mushrooms and what they showed me. I appreciate the way you are not simply reading my posts. States change. I have flowed through many in a few weeks. This morning I am waking up in a new place in El Zonte, adjusting and recalibrating. I hope you are well and feel a flow with similar things and states in your own life.
Hello Terra! I love your authentic, beautiful, messy self. Perhaps because I am that fire without mushrooms, it doesn't intimidate me. But I also know in my own journey how fine a line it is as a love-light warrior between being sword of truth and starting to slash it around and become reactive. Unprocessed trauma combined with genuine, legitimate outrage that stems from compassion and advocacy for life combine to offer the opportunity to liquify and refine again and again. I too have recently felt led to start posting selfies/pictures of myself after not doing so for a long time. The question I ask myself is, "Am I posting this for attention or because it contributes to the lives of others? I love what you said about being a beacon. I love your fearlessness of demons. My question for you is what do YOU feel about your relationship with the medicines in your life? Because it doesn't matter how many coaches way in. I know you know you and I witness you in your greatness. In my in person life, most people can handle me in small doses when I am being myself as I naturally am. They love the light I bring. But it is intense and I don't participate in meaningless interchanges. Can I continue to deepen into my peace so that my energy is bright without being as in your face sometimes? Surely. At the same time, if people are leaving your space, it might not be that anything is wrong with you, but simply it is wrong for them at that time, or at least it is uncomfortable, which also could mean they might adjust if you give yourself integration and them time. So don't change yourself for others.
Hi Alicia. I have a lovely relationship with the mushrooms. The same with the guides I choose to interact with in the subtle realms. Similar with various people I hire for their gifts. I am not worried about people leaving. It has been interesting to unpack a bit. I don't feel a desire to be pushy and I don't believe I am in general. It was more a feeling of standing as a pillar of truth, in myself, which is quite powerful. There is a lot of honoring in that and also allowing others to walk their own path. I do find it helpful to share the process of all this as it is a bit like any journey or practice. Life is both those things and I will be exploring and diving in until the end.
Well, this is something I have written about and not published. One thing I learned is that it is not about the amount, or weight, of the mushrooms, but their strength. The dose I took weighed less in grams, than anything prior. However, the strength was higher. So I imagine the strain contains a higher amount of psilocybin. Also, I believe now that each strain has a different energy or personality, so what mushrooms one chooses, matters a lot. Funny how I could go through a whole coach training on these topics and not have learned that. But now I know.
a delightful read & listen! went very nicely with my morning coffee and strawberry shortcake. sweet writing, Terra . . . nice voice too~ you liquefied ME! :)
Thanks for Being you. I understand the energy shift and liquid flow. Never knew cacao was so powerful. Bless you Terra 🙏❤️
Thanks Jamie. I didn’t know that about cacao either. A few days later I seemed fine again and tried some without arriving in that state. It may have been a synergistic thing with those particular mushrooms and what they showed me. I appreciate the way you are not simply reading my posts. States change. I have flowed through many in a few weeks. This morning I am waking up in a new place in El Zonte, adjusting and recalibrating. I hope you are well and feel a flow with similar things and states in your own life.
Hello Terra! I love your authentic, beautiful, messy self. Perhaps because I am that fire without mushrooms, it doesn't intimidate me. But I also know in my own journey how fine a line it is as a love-light warrior between being sword of truth and starting to slash it around and become reactive. Unprocessed trauma combined with genuine, legitimate outrage that stems from compassion and advocacy for life combine to offer the opportunity to liquify and refine again and again. I too have recently felt led to start posting selfies/pictures of myself after not doing so for a long time. The question I ask myself is, "Am I posting this for attention or because it contributes to the lives of others? I love what you said about being a beacon. I love your fearlessness of demons. My question for you is what do YOU feel about your relationship with the medicines in your life? Because it doesn't matter how many coaches way in. I know you know you and I witness you in your greatness. In my in person life, most people can handle me in small doses when I am being myself as I naturally am. They love the light I bring. But it is intense and I don't participate in meaningless interchanges. Can I continue to deepen into my peace so that my energy is bright without being as in your face sometimes? Surely. At the same time, if people are leaving your space, it might not be that anything is wrong with you, but simply it is wrong for them at that time, or at least it is uncomfortable, which also could mean they might adjust if you give yourself integration and them time. So don't change yourself for others.
Hi Alicia. I have a lovely relationship with the mushrooms. The same with the guides I choose to interact with in the subtle realms. Similar with various people I hire for their gifts. I am not worried about people leaving. It has been interesting to unpack a bit. I don't feel a desire to be pushy and I don't believe I am in general. It was more a feeling of standing as a pillar of truth, in myself, which is quite powerful. There is a lot of honoring in that and also allowing others to walk their own path. I do find it helpful to share the process of all this as it is a bit like any journey or practice. Life is both those things and I will be exploring and diving in until the end.
"There is a lot of honoring in that and also allowing others to walk their own path"
Beautiful
That's great! I love it. How many grams was your "medicinal dose"?
Well, this is something I have written about and not published. One thing I learned is that it is not about the amount, or weight, of the mushrooms, but their strength. The dose I took weighed less in grams, than anything prior. However, the strength was higher. So I imagine the strain contains a higher amount of psilocybin. Also, I believe now that each strain has a different energy or personality, so what mushrooms one chooses, matters a lot. Funny how I could go through a whole coach training on these topics and not have learned that. But now I know.
Thank you for sharing so intimately, beauty. ❤️
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I do seem to do that sometimes. 😉Thank you for catching the words that came.
You’re welcome. It’s what I’m here for. ✨
a delightful read & listen! went very nicely with my morning coffee and strawberry shortcake. sweet writing, Terra . . . nice voice too~ you liquefied ME! :)
That is very kind and coffee and shortcake sounds lovely.
fresh sliced strawberries on pound cake, covered in whipped cream, Terra . . . I treat myself to this about 3 times each week.