What does it mean to embody a frequency of excellence? It's ok to want and need authentic connection, care, humility, kindness, and compassion. Can you allow them to flow through you?
I love this piece and how you showed up as you in both your full and honest experience of life - both the pieces of it that you can choose and the pieces that at least your human self can only choose how to relate to...I can relate to so much of this...esp how presence, like the kind that beautiful divine human being authentically was able to be for you, heals more than therapy.
A long, long time ago I was known as the smily girl/woman. And on the occasional day that I couldn't manage beaming light-filled smile, people felt as thought I was depriving them of their "Alicia fix" and told me to smile. I have had the experience of people who can just let me cry and see my light anyway. It is always so beautiful when it happens and I am usually back to being able to genuinely laugh through tears within minutes when no one needs me to "okay."
"I said, “I just wanted to come in and apologize for losing it in the lobby yesterday.”
And he simply repeated his question, “How are you doing?”
”Today I feel really happy.”
“I love to see a smile on your face,” he said.
And that was it.
He was there for me.
He was not looking for me to show up sunny-side up every day, and he simply wanted me to be happy."
^ Welcoming this world! We might lose some apps...I don't know about you, but for me, at least, this is far more valuable!
I also connect with what you said about excellence...I am on that same journey to see the divine in a more unconditional way...and at the same time honoring my direct guidance about who and who not to interact with...
Yet ultimately...if we all experienced ourselves as both One and also Sovereign, unique...it would be so silly to think of anyone as superior/inferior. We would simply flourish, appreciating our own journey and those of others with grace and humor and joy and a sense of wonder, play, awe and relaxation, knowing we are being the divine expression of our own divine genome as our oversoul wants to express now... and so are they....
Thank you so much Alicia. It is both an odd and a common thing when people have an expectation of a smiling face. It is like only wanting one flavor when so many are available and waiting to be savored. It is so lovely to be welcomed and accepted more fully...and for people to simply want the best for us. I am taking that in a lot lately. I love how you finished your beautiful reflection "...simply flourish, appreciating our own journey and those of others with grace and humor and joy and a sense of wonder..." That feels very alive for me as well. To really feel that all souls are choosing, in that oversoul way, their experiences. I am doing that. And others are too. We are all here to grow and become butterflies. And we are! I will share a quote from an email from one of my advisors. I feel so much support and care from him (which I am learning to take in and receive) and this quote lands for me so deeply: "The world is still a great place with many good people in it. As dark as the times can look, light will always shine through. I'm honored to be on your team through it all. :)" And here we are, you and I, also allowing the light to shine through and holding hands when things may feel dark.
Yesterday was truly a day when we faced a lot of dark AND had fun. But the one above is just about the light and about what you and I were grooving on about allowing people their own pace of awakening - including ourselves.
What a lovely video/story. Ahhhh, yes, things need and take…time. I appreciate the reminder. And I think about Hector and the breath often. I am glad things about the breath have resonated for you too.
I love this piece and how you showed up as you in both your full and honest experience of life - both the pieces of it that you can choose and the pieces that at least your human self can only choose how to relate to...I can relate to so much of this...esp how presence, like the kind that beautiful divine human being authentically was able to be for you, heals more than therapy.
A long, long time ago I was known as the smily girl/woman. And on the occasional day that I couldn't manage beaming light-filled smile, people felt as thought I was depriving them of their "Alicia fix" and told me to smile. I have had the experience of people who can just let me cry and see my light anyway. It is always so beautiful when it happens and I am usually back to being able to genuinely laugh through tears within minutes when no one needs me to "okay."
"I said, “I just wanted to come in and apologize for losing it in the lobby yesterday.”
And he simply repeated his question, “How are you doing?”
”Today I feel really happy.”
“I love to see a smile on your face,” he said.
And that was it.
He was there for me.
He was not looking for me to show up sunny-side up every day, and he simply wanted me to be happy."
^ Welcoming this world! We might lose some apps...I don't know about you, but for me, at least, this is far more valuable!
I also connect with what you said about excellence...I am on that same journey to see the divine in a more unconditional way...and at the same time honoring my direct guidance about who and who not to interact with...
Yet ultimately...if we all experienced ourselves as both One and also Sovereign, unique...it would be so silly to think of anyone as superior/inferior. We would simply flourish, appreciating our own journey and those of others with grace and humor and joy and a sense of wonder, play, awe and relaxation, knowing we are being the divine expression of our own divine genome as our oversoul wants to express now... and so are they....
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Thank you so much Alicia. It is both an odd and a common thing when people have an expectation of a smiling face. It is like only wanting one flavor when so many are available and waiting to be savored. It is so lovely to be welcomed and accepted more fully...and for people to simply want the best for us. I am taking that in a lot lately. I love how you finished your beautiful reflection "...simply flourish, appreciating our own journey and those of others with grace and humor and joy and a sense of wonder..." That feels very alive for me as well. To really feel that all souls are choosing, in that oversoul way, their experiences. I am doing that. And others are too. We are all here to grow and become butterflies. And we are! I will share a quote from an email from one of my advisors. I feel so much support and care from him (which I am learning to take in and receive) and this quote lands for me so deeply: "The world is still a great place with many good people in it. As dark as the times can look, light will always shine through. I'm honored to be on your team through it all. :)" And here we are, you and I, also allowing the light to shine through and holding hands when things may feel dark.
"We are all here too grow and become butterflies."
<3 happy sigh. Yes. I also wanted to tell your posts on breath have helped me with mine!
https://open.substack.com/pub/aliciakwon/p/a-tour-of-my-garden-part-one-the?utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web
A little light for you!
"holding hands when things may feel dark."
Yesterday was truly a day when we faced a lot of dark AND had fun. But the one above is just about the light and about what you and I were grooving on about allowing people their own pace of awakening - including ourselves.
What a lovely video/story. Ahhhh, yes, things need and take…time. I appreciate the reminder. And I think about Hector and the breath often. I am glad things about the breath have resonated for you too.