Love the message. Frankly, I increasingly understand why people people please - I am generally what you see is what you get and I pay the price frequently. Yet...on the flip of that is beautiful intuitive conversation I had with a new neighbor this morning...an answer to prayer...so beautiful to speak authentically and lovingly with a stranger, now a friend who lives just doors down.
Thank you, I needed the laugh today! Have you told anyone you are pregnant by accident? "Estoy embazada?"
I am glad you have such a lovely connection with your new neighbor. And I love your authenticity and that you got a chuckle out of my story. I had heard the pregnant thing as a joke a while back and that stuck with me, so I have avoided that pitfall and opted for sexy instead 😂😘.
Terra, that feels wonderful to know! I am delighted to you love my authenticity. My husband once said, "I want to say I admire your authenticity because it takes courage but then I realize you are just wired that way."
This is true. It takes a lot more courage for someone who is not wired that way to choose it. There is a line in The Horses Know book where two characters in the story find each other hot and sexy...well it doesn't go into that, but it's implied. He tells her she's the best of humanity. She tells him, "No you are; I was born into it; you had to choose it." I was born with plenty of baggage and challenging stuff inwardly and outwardly to slosh through and fail through and alchemize the best I can...but the authenticity is something that, for whatever reasons, genetic/spiritual, I just came with it.
I remember lying on a grocery store floor having a tantrum because my other said we couldn't afford to get a candle. I thought it was rubbish because I know all the money we spent on other things and that if we chose to arrange the spending slightly differently were could have afforded the two dollar object I loved. I remember various attempts to achieve compliance. I remember thinking "You can't make me. I can choose to die rather than be forced." Eventually once I realized I COULD refuse, I did get up and s top my tantrum, but that's just an example. I also ran away at 11, as you did at three. My rational for returning was that if I continued along that path I would end up a drug addict and a prostitute, whereas if I could make it to and through college I could have a good life.
RE your langue, it's good you head a heads up on mental birth control. You could go for, "I'm sexy...I'm not pregnant...I mean I'm not embarrassed...I mean I'm hot...and sexy...also not not pregnant. I mean that's a fine basis for a relationship, right?
“The universe is conspiring so you can be here” - so lovely! Your voice is positive and confident and soothing. And the beautiful sound of the ocean! Bring authentic and trusting ourselves is a great message.
Thank you! Yes, that is such a practice for me, to take that in. And I am truly practicing feeling it. I am grateful and touched by your kind words and how beautifully you received my early morning musings.
All good points. I use Google Translate frequently and then I try to say things without it. Kind of how a young child learns. I just have to do it and do it “wrong” for a time. The light has a special component to reduce emfs and I believe the man who makes it knew about dirty electricity and was working to minimize the effects (not sure as he was giving me a lot of information in a very short period of time). I am very sensitive to fluorescent light and can pick up on that. What my new friends were talking about is imperceptible to the eye. I do not have the device that tests for it and I don’t know how much it affects everyone or just those who are highly sensitive. There is always more to learn and I adjust as I go depending on the information I have. I remain curious about this and am still exploring.
Love the message. Frankly, I increasingly understand why people people please - I am generally what you see is what you get and I pay the price frequently. Yet...on the flip of that is beautiful intuitive conversation I had with a new neighbor this morning...an answer to prayer...so beautiful to speak authentically and lovingly with a stranger, now a friend who lives just doors down.
Thank you, I needed the laugh today! Have you told anyone you are pregnant by accident? "Estoy embazada?"
I am glad you have such a lovely connection with your new neighbor. And I love your authenticity and that you got a chuckle out of my story. I had heard the pregnant thing as a joke a while back and that stuck with me, so I have avoided that pitfall and opted for sexy instead 😂😘.
Terra, that feels wonderful to know! I am delighted to you love my authenticity. My husband once said, "I want to say I admire your authenticity because it takes courage but then I realize you are just wired that way."
This is true. It takes a lot more courage for someone who is not wired that way to choose it. There is a line in The Horses Know book where two characters in the story find each other hot and sexy...well it doesn't go into that, but it's implied. He tells her she's the best of humanity. She tells him, "No you are; I was born into it; you had to choose it." I was born with plenty of baggage and challenging stuff inwardly and outwardly to slosh through and fail through and alchemize the best I can...but the authenticity is something that, for whatever reasons, genetic/spiritual, I just came with it.
I remember lying on a grocery store floor having a tantrum because my other said we couldn't afford to get a candle. I thought it was rubbish because I know all the money we spent on other things and that if we chose to arrange the spending slightly differently were could have afforded the two dollar object I loved. I remember various attempts to achieve compliance. I remember thinking "You can't make me. I can choose to die rather than be forced." Eventually once I realized I COULD refuse, I did get up and s top my tantrum, but that's just an example. I also ran away at 11, as you did at three. My rational for returning was that if I continued along that path I would end up a drug addict and a prostitute, whereas if I could make it to and through college I could have a good life.
RE your langue, it's good you head a heads up on mental birth control. You could go for, "I'm sexy...I'm not pregnant...I mean I'm not embarrassed...I mean I'm hot...and sexy...also not not pregnant. I mean that's a fine basis for a relationship, right?
“The universe is conspiring so you can be here” - so lovely! Your voice is positive and confident and soothing. And the beautiful sound of the ocean! Bring authentic and trusting ourselves is a great message.
Thank you! Yes, that is such a practice for me, to take that in. And I am truly practicing feeling it. I am grateful and touched by your kind words and how beautifully you received my early morning musings.
All good points. I use Google Translate frequently and then I try to say things without it. Kind of how a young child learns. I just have to do it and do it “wrong” for a time. The light has a special component to reduce emfs and I believe the man who makes it knew about dirty electricity and was working to minimize the effects (not sure as he was giving me a lot of information in a very short period of time). I am very sensitive to fluorescent light and can pick up on that. What my new friends were talking about is imperceptible to the eye. I do not have the device that tests for it and I don’t know how much it affects everyone or just those who are highly sensitive. There is always more to learn and I adjust as I go depending on the information I have. I remain curious about this and am still exploring.